Waiting… truly one of the hardest things we have to
do in life. How many mistakes have we made, because we selfishly decided to
take matters into our own hands? How many
times have we been disappointed with Gods answer of “no, I have something
better for you, trust me, or simply not yet.” ? So many times we forget that
God can see the whole picture. He knows, in its entirety, how our life unfolds;
from beginning to end. We forget that we only see our lives in glimpses. We see
the present moment, and the near future, but we don’t see our whole life, in
one piece, from the beginning to end. We forget that God created us. That he
knows our heart, and its deepest desires, even better than we do. He knows not
only what we want, but exactly what we need. It is hard, extremely hard, to be
in a season of waiting. More times than not, I’ve decided to take matters into
my own hands, and try to get what I want, in my own way, to match my own
timing. Time and time again, I’ve found it never works. Sometimes I may get what I want, and I am
happy, for the moment, but if nothing changes in my heart, if there was never a
growth period, even after I get what I thought I so badly wanted, I’m still
left wanting more. The cycle continues. Until we can learn to be content, even
in a season of waiting, the cycle will always continue. I am learning, it is
during the seasons of waiting, that God is so fully able to capture our
attention. He is able to so completely fix our gaze on Himself, and purify our
deepest longings and desires. “If Eve wasn’t content in the garden, what makes
me think I will be content if only my circumstances were different? Contentment
doesn’t come from perfect circumstances but from fixing our eyes on Jesus and
what’s eternal, not on what’s temporary.” (missionalwomen.com) Our
circumstances shouldn’t dictate our levels of contentment, but rather the
knowledge of who our Heavenly Father is should dictate our contentment. I don’t think
we fully understand all that God wants to offer us, if we would only be willing
to place our full trust in Him. If we would be willing to believe He truly is
everything the Bible says He is. If we were only willing to believe He truly is
all that we need. How different would our lives look if we placed our full
trust in God? If we stopped throwing little pity parties when God asks us to
wait, consciously made the decision to joyfully be content, and honored Him in
every decision we made? How different would our lives look if we faithfully
stuck to the convictions he places on our hearts, rather than giving up the
second we don’t get our way?
