I have loved this scripture for a very long time. However, I always just read & meditated on the end of it, "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." I had never really read what lead up to those words, but today, for the first time, I understood a little more from it. As much as we despise the "thorns" in our lives, whatever they may be, they are an unbelievably huge blessing from God. Our thorns are the very things that remind us just how weak we are. If we could conquer these thorns on our own, then yes, we would have the right to take all the credit and keep all the glory for ourselves. A thorn will stay in your life as long as you allow it. For many, that can be a lifetime. And yes, we are perfectly capable of functioning with thorns. Think about it, if you actually had a thorn stuck to your arm that you could not remove, I'm sure the universe would not stop. You would still have to get up, go to work, and continue on with life. Life would be possible, but there would always be that little sting of pain. For many, that is exactly how life looks. We get up every morning and put at least a half smile on our faces. We function, but we function with a little bit of pain in our lives. Those thorns don't have to stay there; God wants to help prune those pesky thorns out of our lives. Of course, we all want our thorns removed, and I'm sure you're thinking, well duh! The thing is, it's not easy. If it were easy, we would have all already lined up before God with a handful of our thorns, He would have wiped them away and we'd all be perfect people with perfect lives. But it's not easy. It's hard. Truly presenting our thorns to God is hard. It means we leave our egos at the door. Handing our thorns over to God, means we surrender; we surrender our whole being to the creator of the universe. Now like I said, the world does not stop turning because we have a few pesky thorns in our lives; so what are we to do as we strive with our God to remove those thorns? In the book Restless (yes I wholeheartedly recommend this book!), Jennie Allen shares a quote from the movie Amazing Grace: "why is it you only feel the thorns in your feet when you stop running?" She goes on to say, "when we run for God and for people, we forget for just a moment about ourselves, and it feels amazing. Nothing makes a soul sicker than too much time given to itself." So run; run despite the pesky thorns in your life. Run even when you don't know what direction to go; run even when it looks more like a crawl. Just get moving. No matter what your personal thorns are, start running, the pain of your thorns isn't so bad once you start running. & when you do stop to catch your breath, I am sure you'll be pleased with how far you've come.
Praise From The Inside Out
To see & reflect the glory of the Lord... (2 Corinthians 4:18)
Wednesday, January 20, 2016
Thorns
To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." (2 Corinthians 12:7-9)
Brokenness
There are many times when the river of life ebbs, rather than flows. But what I have learned is, these hiccups, they come & they go. You can ride out some really high highs & then hit some really low lows. & as I have learned in the past, we need them both. We can't have one without the other. They keep each other in check. Our highs are meant to help us make our gains. They give the strength & courage to chase our goals. Most times we find success during our highs.. Our highs are true blessings. But then again, so are our lows. Our lows are meant to keep our egos in check. Our lows are meant to draw us back & remind us of our desperate need for God. So rather than fight our lows, maybe we should embrace them. Maybe lows don't ever really have to be a negative thing. Maybe they're simply meant to remind us to embrace brokenness & press harder into God.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Waiting
Waiting… truly one of the hardest things we have to
do in life. How many mistakes have we made, because we selfishly decided to
take matters into our own hands? How many
times have we been disappointed with Gods answer of “no, I have something
better for you, trust me, or simply not yet.” ? So many times we forget that
God can see the whole picture. He knows, in its entirety, how our life unfolds;
from beginning to end. We forget that we only see our lives in glimpses. We see
the present moment, and the near future, but we don’t see our whole life, in
one piece, from the beginning to end. We forget that God created us. That he
knows our heart, and its deepest desires, even better than we do. He knows not
only what we want, but exactly what we need. It is hard, extremely hard, to be
in a season of waiting. More times than not, I’ve decided to take matters into
my own hands, and try to get what I want, in my own way, to match my own
timing. Time and time again, I’ve found it never works. Sometimes I may get what I want, and I am
happy, for the moment, but if nothing changes in my heart, if there was never a
growth period, even after I get what I thought I so badly wanted, I’m still
left wanting more. The cycle continues. Until we can learn to be content, even
in a season of waiting, the cycle will always continue. I am learning, it is
during the seasons of waiting, that God is so fully able to capture our
attention. He is able to so completely fix our gaze on Himself, and purify our
deepest longings and desires. “If Eve wasn’t content in the garden, what makes
me think I will be content if only my circumstances were different? Contentment
doesn’t come from perfect circumstances but from fixing our eyes on Jesus and
what’s eternal, not on what’s temporary.” (missionalwomen.com) Our
circumstances shouldn’t dictate our levels of contentment, but rather the
knowledge of who our Heavenly Father is should dictate our contentment. I don’t think
we fully understand all that God wants to offer us, if we would only be willing
to place our full trust in Him. If we would be willing to believe He truly is
everything the Bible says He is. If we were only willing to believe He truly is
all that we need. How different would our lives look if we placed our full
trust in God? If we stopped throwing little pity parties when God asks us to
wait, consciously made the decision to joyfully be content, and honored Him in
every decision we made? How different would our lives look if we faithfully
stuck to the convictions he places on our hearts, rather than giving up the
second we don’t get our way?
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Ebbs & Flows
In every
relationship, there are ebbs, and there are flows. There are times when things
come easy. Motivation is high, and you are always on cloud nine. The same holds
true with the God of the universe. There are times when He feels so close, and
loving Him comes easy. But then there are times when motivation is low, and an
unsettling feeling of emptiness, brokenness, and doubt sets in. As I have
personally learned, the way we choose to respond to these feelings determines
the people we become. If we allow it to, emptiness and brokenness can lead us
to the deep, satisfying relationship we all need with the God of the ages. We
all have points of weakness, and the devil loves to attack us in these areas.
The devil knows our weaknesses and when he views us as a threat, he strikes
extremely harsh. As I heard before, "once you know your weaknesses, they
have no power over you." Knowing your weaknesses is a huge step, because
the fact that you know means that you can do something about it. You have the
power to rise up and fight, rejoicing in the fact that the Lord has already
overcome, and victory is promised (1 Corinthians 15:57) Now, although victory
is promised, it doesn't mean the battle is going to be easy. A battle is a
battle nonetheless. So when you feel as though your relationship with God is
experiencing an ebb (feelings of emptiness, loneliness, brokenness doubt,
confusion etc.) and you feel like seeking comfort in earthly things, view it as
a battle, and fight with all you have (2 Corinthians 12:9) Though the last
thing you may feel like doing is sitting in God's presence, marveling at his
splendor, and giving Him praise, that is exactly what you need to do. Anyone
can do something when it's easy; but it takes commitment to stick it out when
things get hard. These hard times that God gives us are meant to draw us back
to Him. It may seem like such a cruel thing to do- to create us with this one
empty space that only He can fill- but really it is a grand plan. God knew, in
our own selfish ways, we would long to control our own lives, and go about life
without seeking Him. That breaks Gods heart. He longs for us. He wants our
love. We put a smile on his face. But, He loves us so much He gave us the
opportunity to choose for ourselves. We don't have to choose to fill that empty
space with Him. In fact, we try to fill it with just about every other thing
under the sun (alcohol, sex, food, etc.) No, God doesn't force His way into
this spot. He simply gave us this spot with great hope that we would allow Him
to enter and dwell in it. He longs for that connection. Yes, just as we each
have a spot that only he can feel, He has special places that only each
individual can fill. He doesn't need our love, but he wants it and we have the
opportunity to decide our level of intimacy with Him. God never changes. He
never seeks or pursues us any less. His offer remains the same. He remains the
same. What changes is our hearts. Our level of openness, willingness, and
vulnerability changes. So offer Him your changing heart; whatever state it may
be in. If your heart is broken and empty, tell him. He wants to hear it from
you . He wants to hold your heart, he's just waiting for a green light. He
knows what you need; not just what you want, but what you need. Embrace the
ebbs and the flows that come along with life. Let your heart become fully
alive. When your heart aches, let it ache, acknowledge the emptiness and the
hurt; but then, bring it before God, and be filled with joy, because the joy of
the Lord is your strength. Joy and suffering, they go hand in hand. We wouldn't
know one without the other. Without suffering, we wouldn't ever have the hope
for joy. So let your suffering fuel your desire for joy. Embrace the emptiness
and let God fill it.
Sunday, November 3, 2013
What Can I Offer?
To many times, I find myself thinking about
how I could be happier. If I lived here, would I be happier? If I worked here,
would I be happier? If I dated him, would I be happier? If they were my
friends, would I be happier? There are so many things wrong with my way of
thinking. When my happiness is dependent on places, people, and things around
me, I set myself up for failure and disappointment. People will fail us. No
matter how good of people they are, they are only human.
True
happiness and satisfaction cannot be found in mere humans, or any earthly
thing. Joy, satisfaction, and peace are found when we choose to complete the
love connection with God, the King of kings. Once we are filled with true joy,
peace, and satisfaction from the relationship we have with our God, we are free
to simply love. We do not need to rely on others around us, or our
circumstances to be happy. As I prepare for this week, I refer back to some quotes I heard from pastor Brady Boyd at the Desperation Conference last year. I will begin each day with a simple prayer, "Lord, what are you doing today, and how can I cooperate?" As I walk through each day, I will ask myself, "how could I STRENGTHEN, ENCOURAGE, or COMFORT each person I come into contact with?" This week, I will ask myself, "what can I offer?" "What can I offer this person? What can I offer this campus? What can I offer this city? What can I offer this church? What can I offer this world?" I will not focus on what I can gain from others, but rather on what I can give to others.
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Take Me To The River
"All
I know is you will be enough… Take me to the river, pull me off the shore, here
within your freedom I have found my reason, I am yours… Let the water rise, far
above my head"
I remember attending
Desperation Conference two years ago(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZB-Oz5bW8WM) hearing this song, and feeling it just
tug at my heart. For that weekend, this became the cry of my heart. Let the
water rise, far above my head! I was tired, tired of sitting on the edge, toes
in the water, too afraid to step in, much less dive head first. I have always
sat on the edge. Writing this, I went back and forth between the words
"have" and "had"… either "I have always been on the
edge" or "I had always been on the edge" If I say "I
had" that means it is in the past. It is no more. The reason I struggled
with this wording was because I hadn't truly decided in my heart if I was ready
to take the plunge or not. I think the reason I struggle with this, is because
I'm scared, scared of failure, scared of disappointing my God, scared of
disappointing myself. Scared of the unknown. I'm worried I won't have what it
takes. I'm worried I will fail. I'm worried I will fall short. I'm worried I
won't be enough. I realize, as I write this, I am saying "I" to much.
You see, it's not about anything "I" can do, but all about what my
God can do. I am not enough. I have never been enough. I will never be enough.
But He is enough. Today, I sit here,
tired, still tired, tired of being too afraid to allow myself to become
completely immersed in this love relationship with my Heavenly Father, my King,
my Prince of Peace. What will I choose? To say have? Or to say had? I realize,
I need to say had. Not because I don't struggle anymore; struggling is not in
the past, but what is in the past, is me sitting on the edge. Yes, it is scary,
a scary thing to say, to say confidently. It means there is the chance to fail.
Along with the chance to fail, though, comes the chance to succeed. This is a
long journey, I know, but one worth taking, and I'm glad I can plunge into this
journey, as I meditate upon these words, "Jesus said to them, 'It is not
those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick; I did not
come to call the righteous, but sinners.'" (Mark 2:17) I don't need to be
perfect for God to use me. Thank goodness! I just need to be willing, and that
I am. I am ready for something deeper, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes.
Monday, October 14, 2013
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